What the hell...sometimes I'm just not sure of myself or my decisions anymore.
See...I'm in this wedding next month and I keep hearing things that one girl keeps saying about me. She is trying to ruin a great friendship that I have with another girl (who's not in the wedding). I heard that the bride only wanted me in the wedding for a gift, she thought she had to put me in it, etc. At first I couldn't believe it because the bride and I were best friends for two years. We lived together and was in a sorority together. Today I heard that the one girl told my friend that the reason the bride and I had lunch last week was to see if I should still be in the wedding. And she had one alumni (who I haven't talked to in forever) take me to coffee and told me that she was worried about me being friends with my good friend. F her!! I can make my own friends.
Really?
I'm just so upset. Why are people dumb? If this is true, which I believe it is, then why can these two people not tell me themselves? They need to grow up and act mature. It wouldn't kill me to not be in the wedding, and now being in it...I feel like I'm dying. lol.
I guess right now, I feel like I'm understanding what a friend is for the first time. I really thought I knew. After finding my bestie now, I can't believe who I was "friends" with. Friends that I have back at home, are just people I go to the movies with, maybe dinner or lunch. That's it. We've never had real conversations and if we have, it didn't matter. I now have someone who calls me to know what's going on, and we hang out at least four times a week. I've never had someone who actually enjoyed my time and me as a person. But I'm scared. I don't want to lose her, you know?
But she knows of this situation and agrees with my great friend. (All 3 of us are good friends)
Ughhh......
I just have no idea what to do. The wedding is May 21. I just have to get through the bachelorette party, rehearsal dinner and the actual wedding.
I hope to be able to do this.
See...I'm in this wedding next month and I keep hearing things that one girl keeps saying about me. She is trying to ruin a great friendship that I have with another girl (who's not in the wedding). I heard that the bride only wanted me in the wedding for a gift, she thought she had to put me in it, etc. At first I couldn't believe it because the bride and I were best friends for two years. We lived together and was in a sorority together. Today I heard that the one girl told my friend that the reason the bride and I had lunch last week was to see if I should still be in the wedding. And she had one alumni (who I haven't talked to in forever) take me to coffee and told me that she was worried about me being friends with my good friend. F her!! I can make my own friends.
Really?
I'm just so upset. Why are people dumb? If this is true, which I believe it is, then why can these two people not tell me themselves? They need to grow up and act mature. It wouldn't kill me to not be in the wedding, and now being in it...I feel like I'm dying. lol.
I guess right now, I feel like I'm understanding what a friend is for the first time. I really thought I knew. After finding my bestie now, I can't believe who I was "friends" with. Friends that I have back at home, are just people I go to the movies with, maybe dinner or lunch. That's it. We've never had real conversations and if we have, it didn't matter. I now have someone who calls me to know what's going on, and we hang out at least four times a week. I've never had someone who actually enjoyed my time and me as a person. But I'm scared. I don't want to lose her, you know?
But she knows of this situation and agrees with my great friend. (All 3 of us are good friends)
Ughhh......
I just have no idea what to do. The wedding is May 21. I just have to get through the bachelorette party, rehearsal dinner and the actual wedding.
I hope to be able to do this.
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