Glad to know I could help...NOT

What do you do when you only have yourself to lean on? That's how I feel sometimes. To be honest I know I have a few great friends to talk to, but I wouldn't want to drag them into this....

Today started out pretty good. Mother and I went to Great Lakes Crossing and I got shoes for the wedding. We came home and I watched the kids for a bit. There was a HUGE fight in the house tonight from sister and mother. Mother hadn't been this bad in a long time...can't wait until tomorrow.

Had a great night last night though! Hung out with my homies! I miss them :( I need to be around normal people more!! I love living by campus. It keeps me grounded and makes me notice what normalcy is.

Sometimes I wish I could really just change my name to Beez and start a completely new life. I would grab my first bro, my dog and leave. Never look back. I would sell all of my crap and go. Too bad there are two new kids in my life that were adopted last October. That fucked up my plan. Sometimes, I can't even remember who I am. I am pretty much a mom, a wife, an unpaid nanny, a best friend, a student, a sorority sister, then after all of that..I can actually come out a little.

Quote:

Sometimes, struggles are exactly what we need in our life. If we were to go through our life without any obstacles, we would be crippled. We would not be as strong as what we could have been. Give every opportunity a chance, leave no room for regrets.